Hello, I am here again, really has it been since October that I have written anything? I am so sorry, not only to you if you are reading but also to my self. I am realizing I do need this space. I need it as a place to write down my thoughts, and to reflect and maybe just to bounce ideas in to the air or off of other people.
I have been thinking about what I want to focus on here, and my answer is everything I guess. My life is so full of everything. One of the keys things though that I keep coming back to is determination. I do have a lot of it, but is has to be something that I want and believe in. If it is I won't give up, I will make it work to the best of my ability.
In our decision that I would stay at home with our little ones we knew it would be a struggle as we do not have the typical income that a family generally needs to have one parent at home. It has always been something that we wanted and needed. When I was working full time outside the home we felt a great misalignment in our family. Our kids needed me and I them. It took a huge leap of faith for me to let my job go because I knew that we would be giving up that income which was mostly going towards paying some else to raise our children.
Then after many long years of public schooling and putting our original dream of homeschooling on the back burner we were shown that it was clear that we needed to go back to what was originally in our hearts. We are nearing the end of our first full year of homeschooling. It has been challenging at times, but our dynamic is changing, we are each finding our groove and recently I have begun to see the changes happening in my boy. He is more confident to make new friends and to learn about what interests him. He is generally happy. That is all I want for them. Happiness, in this job of motherhood I may not always be able to make everyone happy, But I may be able to teach them how to find it, even when the chips are down.
Right now homeschooling makes us happy, and even though our finances at the moment don't allow for much, we are determined to make it work, and so.. by the power of me I will keep trying so that we can do what is important to us, and not give up..
